- My name is Marian and I am 56 years old.
- I am very happily married to a wonderful man, great career, nice home and wonderful friends and family.
- I always thought I had the perfect life when all of a sudden, it seemed to me, the bottom fell out of it!
- I have always been so in control of everything in my life but we had a few months of continuous bad news about family members’ health, stresses at work and everything just seemed to start falling apart.
- Out of the blue one night, I had my first anxiety attack and thought I was having a heart attack. A doctor spoke to me over the phone and gradually I calmed down and was advised to either go to A&E or the doctor.
- It was snowing really hard so I went to our GP the next day and I turned up at the emergency walk-in surgery just about every other day for the next month! I was in a complete state of panic and fear about everything and just did not know what to do. For the first time in my life I was not in control and was truly frightened. The doctors did what they could and I was diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder. I was sure there must be a tablet I could take to make it better but it soon became scarily obvious there was no pill that would make this better.
- I was referred for counselling but the waiting list was about 3 months and I knew I needed help before then. There were days when I thought there must be an escape from this, I felt so desperate, but I couldn’t do that to my family.
- I searched online and also referred to one of the information sheets from the doctors. I did some research into mindfulness and meditation and all of the articles I read advised that they were ideal for anxiety and also general all-round wellness and a great way to deal with today’s stresses. I signed up for a Mindfulness course with some reservations. I followed the training to the letter and practiced every single day. In some ways I still expected that this would be a miracle cure. It wasn’t but I continued to follow the course right through to the end.
- By the end of the course, I have to say it made such a positive difference to how I coped with my anxiety and stress levels. Comparing the assessment at the start and end of the course proved how much it helped me.
- I still continue to practice mindfulness and meditation every single day.
“I believe that mindfulness has not only helped me, but has helped make me a kinder, more understanding person to the people around me.”
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